Mixed Emotions

The sky is mixed

in light and dark

in clouds as wisps

and solid puffs

of white against

which the thinner

ghosts of darkness

contrast and cross

You’re sorting out

your sanity

in particles

that make no sense

that paint themselves

as part of one

big picture that

rips itself apart

Do you hate it

here so very

much that you could

never love me?

The sky screams rain

and sunlight in

scattered layers

across the valley

Whatever card

you hold you drop

down on the floor

but never bend

to pick it up

for fear that it

might complicate

your situation

Look out below

but not above

explanations

reek and wander

like to wonder

like to ask you

where she went to

when she went away

Condense, let go

and, dropping down,

don’t wave goodbye

as if it matters

the waiting’s free

the wonder not

but it’s the chill

that’s bound to kill you.